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Thursday, November 26, 2015

Tale 73

She was an architect by profession
And an extremely introvert delicate girl
She was raised in a house of working parents and was independent of sorts
She knew how to take care of herself...
She was happy to attend a job in a firm....
Working long hours was a way of life...
As a plaint and dutiful employee her boss was almost always happy to burden her with work which by default would always be more than what she was supposed to be doing....
She learnt flute over the weekends and was good at it...
She obviously always walked right by her noseline looking nowhere but front...
Her parents got her married to someone from their religion caste and subcaste...
They matched horoscopes and made sure everything was close to perfect....
Her husband was handsome with a high paying job...
She had to however let go of her job since her husband had to travel....
They changed 3 cities in 3 years of marriage....
She went on from becoming a career conscious woman to a housewife...
All she got to do was plan meals cook clean read n paint when she felt like...
Of course she was happy in doing so..
It indeed was a welcome break from her hectic schedule before marriage....
She slowed down and enjoyed marital bliss...
She loved her husband to bits....
Her husband treated her with respect....
Her in laws were bossy of sorts but she kept her patience on place...
Holding up herself whenever she visited them...
She was bullied into doing most of the household work camouflaging it in words like you cook so well that we are addicted to your cooking....
She felt better n cooked n cleaned...
She was an obedient daughter in law and a near to perfect wife....
It was about time they thought of having a baby....
She conceived...
Pregnancy was tough given her delicate structure and morning sickness and some infections here n there...
A sweetest baby girl was born...
While she was at her mother's house for delivery she relaxed to the core
She realised how she had missed this pampering for the longest time ever...
As soon as the baby was three months old she returned to her home...
Unfortunately her husband kept travelling and she needed support to raise the baby...
She naively accepted the proposal of staying with her in laws...
Once she went to their place she got bombarded with suggestions about raising the baby in their pattern...
Motherhood brought such assertiveness in her that she firmly put her foot down in matters that she felt she knew better....
With polite tone but an confident aggression she expressed her views...
They were taken aback at this transformation...
Nevertheless she did get talking....
A baby gives birth to a mother rightly said....
She quickly took decisions of shifting back to her home to be with her husband who still kept travelling
She hired ample domestic help to look after her baby and rejoined flute...
She practiced her music lessons in the evenings while the maids took her baby out for a stroll...
She gave her first solo performance as a flautist on the second birthday of her baby...
She was pressurised to go in for a second child however she Aggressively refused this time....
Motherhood not only gave her a purpose in life but a reason to speak for herself....
Her individuality was back...
She wasn't guilty in Giving herself time that she deserved rightfully...
Her individuality was right in place and so was her self respect...
She was happy with one baby and decided to nurture her second baby well
Her flute....
Her husband and parents were proud of her
Slowly the in laws realised that she had proved them wrong...
She became a well known name in the music scene while being one of the most alive and cheerful mothers in the parents teachers meet of her daughters school...
While her husband still travels extensively for work she chose to stay put at one place back home for the good of her daughter and herself...
She still looks delicate but isn't docile anymore...
She never regrets that she didn't get to practice architecture nor does she lets her husband miss having another offspring...
She aspires to be a music therapist as she seriously completes the coursework and internship in her city
She has started training music enthusiasts in flute on weekends...
One of her student's Is her own Husband...
While their young daughter loves playing Lego but isn't inclined much towards flute...
And they know its okay and it really actually is...
She d be someone or anyone she wants to be..
The family knows it... With experience...
Not all tales need to have drama or some profound lesson....
‪#‎notsotinytales‬
- Prajakta Sathe.

Tale 72

Let's call her the Nayika of this tale...
Her husband treated her as a doormat
This husband was a cunning shrewd man who selfishly always thought about himself
100 percent commitment to work and shunning off attitude towards personal life had him score higher in the professional field while his family life sucked...
She was an extremely sensitive woman who seeked answers to many Why's? in life
Integrity was something she strongly vouched for as her motto
Of what she understood from reading watching and hearing about life was that karma needed to be warded off
Either by financial loss, physical debility or interpersonal disturbance causing emotional upheaval...
So she got a reason as to why her married life was in shackles...
Once she understood that, she decided to do something...
She decided to do nothing to change Him but she decided to change her perspective....
She could get over the inadequacies of relationship by keeping herself engrossed in things she loved....
When she did start her journey towards finding joy and fulfillment within she realised that a lot many similar people automatically got connected with her...
In due course of time as she found out that simple things make her happy and that happiness is reflective and contagious she started having many friends
Friends soon became followers and then supporters
The joy of having people with such positivity in her life was so comforting that she turned on a new leaf...
She found peace in expression...
She started doing more in all aspects of her life....
Just then she came across another high vibrational soul
He exuded extra ordinary warmth but an extremely attractive longing towards her...
Let us call him the Nayak of our tale...
She was taken aback with the kind of connection she felt for him....
She in the past had boundaries of social norms and limitations of age old customs and traditions....
However as she shed her conditioning veils one by one what she was left with was a void....
A void which was ready to be filled up with anything she wanted....
She was ready to accept everything and reject nothing....
So they connected...
First with a strong force of attraction
Then with a stronger force of attachment....
Little did they know that destiny by default always had plans that they weren't prepared for but in fact the big plan was actually designed by no one but them before taking birth....
She gave him full commitment and thought of no one but him....
She made sure that she gave him full attention love care and support while maintaining the balance in her legal marriage ...
They dreamt about starting a family someday having a huge cottage with a farmhouse and kids and dogs and lots of noise around their home...
They were happy together imagining life....
He was a free soul who freewheeled with life and picked and dropped whatever it had to offer or take away....
It was his birthday and he was showered with blessings and wishes from all over the world...
Just then he received an inbox message with a picture that said....
NOBODY IS HERE TO FULFILL YOUR DREAM... EVERYBODY IS HERE TO FULFILL HIS OWN DESTINY, HIS OWN REALITY...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STAY BLESSED....
He was taken aback with the profoundness of the picture message....
He replied thanks...
This female was an actress who immediately asked if he could share his number since she wanted to have a word....
The female called him...
She was an actress who had travelled a lot and seen a lot in life and beyond...
Let's call her the Actress....
This actress seemed spiritually inclined...
There was something in her that ruffled things within him...
He spent the night thinking about the actress and feeling restless....
Messaging interaction followed...
The actress was relaxed and taking it slow while our Nayak was filled with curiousness of exploration...
The actress was beautiful and attractive...
The Nayak told about this new association to the Nayika...
The Nayika was first worried then cautious followed by flashes of insecurity and undertones of possessiveness...
She felt every emotion that attachment had to teach her...
She saw him slipping by...
The Nayak was evolved to accept life with open arms...
The Nayika was new to the Reject nothing part....
She struggled it then went in denial and finally came to a stage where she surrendered....
Her husband couldn't be hers because professional success was his soul plan for this lifetime...
The Nayak couldn't be hers because he now had the actress and he had moved on...
She was in love with the Nayak but there was nothing that she could hold back from him/ off him...
She was left with memories of blissful togetherness which now brought up extreme sorrow in her heart...
Shattered with another bruise on her heart she tried asking herself WHY ME???
Just then she realised...
Her purpose of this lifetime was to learn to accept not to reject and to live in the now and to detach from people involved in the relation...
She could feel the relation without attachment she realised...
She found out that she could still be in love with him while NOT HAVING HIM IN LIFE....
she learned to love unconditionally...
She learned to love beyond physical proximity...
Some more veils dropped...
She thanked all three of them in her heart...
The husband , the nayak and the actress...
For they seemed to be her best astral friends to have taken birth along with her just to help her learn her lesson and ward off the karma she had piled on...
It wasn't an easy contract on the blueprint that they three had made to teach her through pain and suffering one of the most important lessons of life...
Detachment...
She now lives peacefully with her husband
She loves the Nayak unconditionally
And she feels genuinely happy for the actress...
She has however changed the place where she lived...
She is present in Now...
That's the coolest place to be she thinks smile emoticon
‪#‎notsotinytales‬
- Prajakta Sathe.

Tale 71

She fell in love for the umpteenth time...
But this was right after she thought that she can never ever fall in love again...
Never had she given up on love before...
However life as we all call it had other plans....
She had lost faith in love rather pure unadulterated love which she thought was a myth...
She hated the word of Unconditional...
Fate had made her set her perception in a way that she thought everything was a Give and Take...
she thought of Love as a measurable content...
A barter of sorts....
Even if lovers completed each other their ultimate crude motives could be labelled as selfish, she thought...
She continued to live a life with an undercurrent of disconsolate wrenched attitude...
She gave up on any possibility of finding someone she could count on ever...
Just then Destiny had other plans....
There entered a man who seemed all black and gray to all but somehow she deep down recognised him as pristine white...
Her gloomy aura was shaken and stirred by this strong soul of a man with a mission
He told her I ll always be two steps behind...
She ridiculed his words at first though...
She didn't dare to say them out aloud on front of him...
But he came and what an arrival it was....
His entry into her blueprint filled her hopes desires ambitions to the brim...
And her cup was overflowing with overwhelming surprises...
Suddenly she found herself in a state of deep transition....
Her senses elevated to the extent of giving her a feeling of lingering ecstasy...
She blossomed again....
She wore colors...
She felt beautiful....
She felt love for everything around....
And gratitude....
She started experiencing abundance in everything that Divinity had to offer....
She enjoyed life to the fullest and realised that there is more joy in Giving...
And that not everything is a Give and Take....
And she knew he just gave her and kept giving her...
And she wondered what she could do to pass the goodness...
This transformation made her purer and purer by the day...
She spoke her mind...
She never lied to him...
But by now she had realised that She couldn't own him...
Neither she can't be just his....
But they could definitely be there for each other as long as they lived this life...
She called him her Soulmate
He called her nothing...
Because a feeling can just be felt he said...
And there was no name that he could lend her...
He could call her with just a thought in his mind...
She knew she had to use words to reach to him...
They knew what they had to know...
It was a fantastic synchronization...
They dreamt of possible life together...
Of journeys that could go for the travelling that they could do and the places they'd visit...
They imagined each other as parents to their probable children and named them
They saw each other beyond the boundaries of space and time being as one not just in the physical plane but in the spirit that they were...
They wondered if souls could split to have different experiences on the earth plane so that they could quickly gel back warding off their karma in supersonic speed....
They had had shattered personal lives in the past and did carry fragments of its repercussions with them...
However they realised that they would heal with company...
Being together would sort deep routed issues one by one till they felt the communication was between their higher selves...
They accepted the power of Now...
Decided to give life a chance...
They now live life...
Of separated togetherness....
Far better than their together but separated statuses earlier...
They watch it pass by in scenes
They understand that they have to play roles without participating in the drama...
They are learning the fine act slowly...
They are happy with each other...
She knows now that he is two steps behind....
With full faith in love that HE is...
‪#‎notsotinytales‬
- Prajakta Sathe.

Tale 70

She was the daughter of a Doctor dad and a lecturer mom...
From an affluent Gujarati family living in the suburbs...
She completed Masters in Journalism and while at it, fell for her tamil - bramhin class mate who was born n brought up in Chennai...
They got engaged to be married soon after their internship stint abroad...
Their courting days in London were a dream come true for both...
It used to be cold n chilly outside but oh so cosy warm and mushy in their apartment in which they shared with a group of their friends...
The days were blissfully addictive...
Words flowed like a river...
They did not need to find inspiration elsewhere....
They completed the year and came out with flying colors!
Deep within they felt like staying back and living in just like they did for some more years however there was parental pressure....
As sentimental as their parents could be... They were emotionally blackmailed to come back to India and marry...
They had to oblige...
They went and settled down in Chennai as a newly wed couple...
Got jobs in print media and started their family life...
Huge Chennai household with stringent rules and orthodox traditions was a tough challenge for an independent girl like her....
He however was happy to be in his comfort zone....
Months passed and reality struck...
She took her job seriously and moved up the ladder sooner than him...
He for no reason kept his laid back attitude on and stayed in the same place that he was even after a year...
On their first anniversary they decided to move back to Mumbai for better prospects....
They fortunately landed up with good jobs in ndidpapers...
She took up new projects and travelled extensively while he continued in his role as a mediocre journalist with taking up no real challenge for himself....
She was promoted....
She changed her job and joined an elite news company...
Their starkly different career graphs reflected adversely in their personal lives...
He went into mild depression....
He left his job... Stayed home... Went for a de-tour solo vacation...
Nothing helped...
He kept falling sick and kept going back to Chennai to recuperate...
She was tired of juggling her highly demanding new role in the company along with the distorted domestic life....
She was a genuinely happy young lady with a flair for art...
She dressed well, took interest in decorating her home, made new friends , threw warm house parties, attended music and dance concerts was crazy about theatre and a die hard fan of travelling....
Reading voraciously and writing rigorously her hands were full but heart empty...
She couldn't rest confidently in his arms at the end if the day since it was always the other way round....
He took her shoulder to lay upon always....
She was his first and last resort...
She had to mother him more than ever....
One day as she came back from work she found a letter
He wrote that he was leaving for good and didn't know if he would come back...
He went abroad and did not explain where and why and how was he going to manage himself....
She was worried about him because she did love him and cared about him...
Not knowing what to do she called up her in-laws for help...
They held her responsible and refused to cooperate....
She was suddenly null...
She was so used to giving him support that the sudden absence made her naive and vulnerable...
Her work started suffering....
Just then a colleague and a common friend noticed this....
He took her out and made her open up...
She poured out everything and cried...
It seemed she had cried after almost a while....
The colleague stood strongly by her side as she was bombarded with false allegations from her husband and in-laws....
They seeked divorce, the battle was tough....
She let go of all their joint possessions jewellery house everything....
She wanted no stress and just peace....
Once she was through the legalities this colleague proposed to her...
She wanted to settle down since she liked being married having a household as much as her professional pursuits...
He was a Muslim... She was concerned about their families.
Nevertheless they did get married....
It was a nice union....
Different culture different customs were fun...
Her now in laws treated her with love whenever they visited her or vice versa...
They were happy....
They wanted to start a family however it was tad bit difficult given her age and gynaecological problems...
They however continue to support each other in all aspects of life as husband and wife...
She had a failed fallopian pregnancy and recovered with the support and care of her in laws...
As much as they want to have kids they have decided to accept it if fate has no plans of parenting for them...
Her parents are awestruck with the transition that their daughter has gone through...
She happily follows the holy month of Ramzan as well as celebrates Diwali in her house...
It's more about being human than being of any religion she says...
You give some you take some...
At the end you just have to seek balance...
They are living happily and definitely ever after.... 
#notsotinytales
- Prajakta Sathe
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Tale 69

He, a well known musician in his early 40s
She was a performing artist in her early 30s
They had worked in a stage presentation 13 years ago
She was a dance student then and in college....
He was a young struggling artist then...
They hardly interacted with each other at that time...
She was under the wings of her dance Guru...
He was under the pressure of providing for his newly started family....
More than a decade ahead a lot many things had happened....
She married the love of her life, settled into marital bliss, had a son and successfully taught at her dance academy for 10 years...
She was happy and joyful, for life seemed a blessing with a supportive husband and an adorable offspring...
He on the other hand had two kids from his marriage but eventually divorced his wife and lived a life of solitude practicing his art...
Career was on a decent roll, he performed in concerts all over the world...
He was into glamour limelight and fame...
He was happy with music but somewhat alone , lonely and deprived....
He saw her on Facebook and sent her a friend request since they had many mutual friends...
She recollected a few stage presentations that they had done in the past and added him....
She was glad to see him again and was happy to come in contact with an artist like him...
Utmost respect, networking, creative interaction, getting to learn new things were a few things that she was excited about this reconnection....
Pleasantries were exchanged and so were numbers...
They spoke on phone about the shows in the past Nostalgia and the fun they used to have at the rehearsals back then...
He shared his past which was unfortunately not all good...
She had all good things to share about her life....
He messaged her constantly...
At first she thought it is about the excitement or tuning of meeting a new friend....
But slowly the messages became incessant...
The messages became obsessively urgent and compulsively expectant laced...
He messaged her day and night...
She tried to reason...
Maybe it's deprivation maybe it's mid life crisis...
She tried to ignore...
She tried to confront...
She politely tried to not pick his continuous calls...
He came to meet her at her house...
She welcomed him with subtle fear of what she sensed was about to come...
He tried to get close and that flashed a light in her head....
Yes he was well known
Yes he was a popular artist
Yes he was successful and busy...
Yes his music had demand....
But that did not define who he was as a person....
She did not want drama....
She firmly objected his advances
Fortunately her husband arrived just in time...
He left cordially....
She chose to let this sink in....
She did not react nor did she respond....
As soon as he left she again received lewd messages from him...
She had an option of telling this to her husband...
She had an option of bringing this forth to public notice by sharing the screen shots of messages on networking site...
She had an option of reasoning as well.... Which she did try...
Talking it out to her closest friends....
Listening to Freudian philosophy and counter questioning the theory of non judgement that she believed in until then she blocked him...
On Facebook On watsapp On truecaller....
She couldn't change any perspective neither hers nor his....
He called it sharing....
Maybe he misunderstood her free spirited radical thinking rational reasoning non judgemental attitude as an invitation for getting close
Maybe physical gratification was routine and random for him
But this incidence was both deeply saddening (not Shocking though) and extremely discouraging...
She held secret fear of making new friends....
She was now overtly cautious about PR and networking...
Her outlook towards man woman dynamics were shaky...
She was about to lose faith in goodness around...
Did this made her clever? Smart? Experienced? No....
Why did she choose to open up to her closest friends but not to her husband?
Did she cradled innate fear of being judged by her own hubby... For not recognising good from bad?
Was she afraid of being labelled as stupid by her life partner???
All said and done she changed...
For good, for bad time would tell...
What happened to him....
Maybe He is about to change some other young woman soon....
Does the need for physical gratification always surpass the need for creative evolution and/or image maintenance ???
‪#‎notsotinytales‬
- Prajakta Sathe.