TALE 6 - Blind love...

She wanted to surprise him...
She wrote an anonymous letter... 
She thought he would recognise her right away... 
So she kept waiting...
He fell for the anonymous girl and never met the real her... 
He waited for another letter which never came...
She tried meeting him umpteen times...
But he avoided her and curiously kept looking for the anonymous...
She missed him...
He missed the anonymous...
They remained...
Incomplete...
‪#‎notsotinytales‬
-Prajakta Sathe

TALE 5 - Collateral...

She smiled He laughed
She nibbled He hogged
She posed He bogged
She strutted He strolled
She was shy He was bold
They didn't know each other
Until the night when they saw themselves in the arms of their respective lovers in a restaurant celebrating anniversary.
Their lovers had met each other before them...
Their lovers were exactly the same.
Their lovers knew each other.
In fact they had begun to love each other.
There was an urgent rush of the equals to introduce the opposites.
Little did they know... That the opposites had one thing in common...
Opposites did not leave their lovers but they set them free that night.
Because they had one thing in common liberation.
‪#‎notsotinytale‬
- Prajakta Sathe.

TALE 4 - Uneven

Because the baby woke up...
She said... Sorry....
He got angry and went back to bed sulking...
Tired weary excruciatingly exhausted; the new mom tried to convince herself that this would be a case with all couples new to parenting...
He started snoring in a jiffy...
She tossed n turned in guilt...
He woke up late and in a crappy mood blaming it all on her...
Sleep deprived she; carries on with her chores as a mom a wife a cook a cleaner a nanny and much more...
The baby's giggles keep her going...
Husband returns late, but in anticipation...
She wants to make him happy...
The baby sleeps just in time...
Then He sleeps in peace...
And finally tonight she sleeps without self accusation...
Some equations aren't always equal.
‪#‎notsotinytales‬
- Prajakta Sathe.

TALE 3 - Two-gether

Married for long...she set the table right
Some fresh jasmine flowers floating in an earthen pot laced with candle lights
The cutlery, the glass wear, the ambience, the mood setting, the music.... 
Everything was beyond perfect... 
She waited for him dressed impeccably from head to toe
Her heart raced fast, as the time of his arrival neared... 
Heartbeats louder than the sax playing on d background, she heard his car being parked...
The reports were with him...
He came... He saw her... He cried...
She looked at him...
She knew him for his love for her...
And these tears were storytellers...
She poured their glasses with Rosé
They clinked...
To celebrate what life had written for them...
Without challenging destiny...
‪#‎notsotinytales‬
- Prajakta Sathe.

TALE 2 - S{'he'}

He was never able to manage on his own due to massive hangovers from previous night's booze...
He ate drank kicked slept, fagged gibbered in semi conscious stage...
She stuck to her schedule finished her meets tasks n deadlines...
Famished tired but calm she returned home everyday....
To find him in another round of drinkathon... 
He had decided to get high before the spirit fades off from his bloodstream...
She had decided to get on with life and provide for them
She had made a commitment
She had loved
She had moved in
He had decided to get on with addiction
He had accepted her commitment
He had enjoyed her love
He had let her move in
Not that she didn't try getting him off
Not that he hurt her intentionally
And yet the story continued...
In a house at a stone's throw away distance from us...
We however have decided to watch n talk n write about it and do what everyone does...just be...
They lived unhappily ever after...

‪#‎notsotinytales‬
- Prajakta Sathe

TALE 1 - Wise kiss...

He saw her at his bachelorette 
A waitress with honey brown eyes
Something inside shunned him from touching alcohol
His friends booed him coaxed him forced him
He refused straight off 
She wasn't a stripper nor was she interested in the outcome or avenues of such a party
She served the starters with a faint smile and sparkling confidence
He couldn't take his eyes off her
He knew there was a story to that night
As if she smiled because she knew that he knew
They sneaked outside the bar at the basement parking lot
He asked her what her problem was
Her eyes twinkled in glee...
This smile he said... And your eyes... Are so disturbing... They ve set me off the enjoyment radar... 
I m unsure... Does this happen at every bachelorette? He asked...
She hugged him tight... She said,
"There are going to be numerous instances of lure, temptations again and again in life after this wedding...
Its upto you... Whether u deal it with control or blow it off is your choice... If u refrain or indulge is again ur choice
If u then share it with ur spouse or not is again your choice...
Your wedlock will culminate into a marriage only if u understand that the LOCK in the wedding is just a concept... No one absolutely no one actually is answerable to what u do... Except for yourself... If u can live with the choices u make, hell u r d boss... If u don't... You are at loss...
Do you want to come with me for the night???" - she asked
Guess boozing is a better choice for today then... I don't have the guts to mess up with full awareness... I haven't even had a peg yet - he said.
She laughed her heart out, " there u go..."
"Oh, but wait....who are you mysterious beauty???" He asked.
Kissing him on his forehead she answered, " A lesson"...

‪ #notsotinytales 
- Prajakta Sathe

अम्रित

तद एकम नावाची संस्था गुरुजी नौशीर इंजिनिअर यांनी स्थापन केली असून त्यांच्याच विचार प्रणालीतून साकारलेले ई-ब्लॉग्स आता आपल्या हातात मूर्त स्वरूपात पडणार आहेत.
मृत्युंजय योगी गुरु महावतार बाबाजी यांची शिकवण गुरुजींच्या लेखणीतून आपल्यापर्यंत पोहोचतेय ती

अम्रित ह्या पुस्तकाद्वारे.

आजाराकडून संतुलित स्वास्थ्याकडे, प्रश्नांकडून उत्तरांकडे व अज्ञानाकडून साक्षात्काराकडे नेणारा अध्यात्माचा मार्ग साधा सरळ नि सोप्प्या शब्दात सांगण्याचं काम गुरुजींनी अत्यंत कसोशीने ह्यात साधलं आहे.

रोजच्या शहरी आयुष्यात आधुनिक माणसाला पडलेले प्रश्न, मग ते व्यावहारिक असुदेत वा प्रापंचिक, अध्यात्मिक, धार्मिक किंवा भावनिक ; सर्व कोड्यांची उकलच जणू ह्या पुस्तकाच्या पानांमध्ये आपल्याला सापडते.

हे पुस्तक वाचतांना, जन्म मृत्यू ह्या चक्रामध्ये व भौतिक व्यापांमध्ये अध्यात्मिक जडणघडण किती महत्वाची आहे हे आपल्याला पटतं. शब्द वचन, आचरण व वैचारिक शृंखला ह्यांना नित्य साधनेने वळण लावता येतं ज्यामुळे शरीर मन व आत्मा ह्यातला अत्यंत तलम असा समतोल साधला जाऊन जगण्यातला खरा आनंद आपल्याला मिळू शकतो अशी शिकवण हे पुस्तक देतं.

दैनंदिनी प्रपंचातली उदाहरणं देऊन, त्याला खमंग भाषाशैलीची फोडणी व त्याला विनोदी बाजाची किनार ह्यामुळे दर पानागणिक हे पुस्तक खिळवून ठेवतं.

एक प्रथितयश C.A. माणूस जो प्रपंचाकडून परमार्थाकडे खेचला जातो व पाच वर्षात तीन योगी पुरुषांना भेटून त्याचा स्वतःकडे आंतरिक प्रवास सुरु होतो व मनुष्याच्या जडणघडणीच्या सर्व गुढत्वाची उकल होऊन गुरुकृपेने गुरुपदाकडे पोहोचतो, हा प्रवास तितकाच अद्भुत व वाचनीय आहे.

गुरुजी नौशीर ह्यांच्या ऑनलाईन ब्लॉग्सची लोकप्रियता वाढायला लागली तशी त्यांच्या अनुयायांनी व शिष्यांनी त्यांचे पुस्तकात रुपांतर व्हावे हा घोषा लावला. शेवटी अनेकांच्या प्रयत्नांना यश येऊन गुरुजींच्याच आशिर्वादाने व महावतार बाबाजींच्या कृपेने १२ जुलै २०१४ रोजी गुरुजींच्या ध्यानमंदिर परिसरात गुरुपौर्णिमेच औचित्य साधून ह्या पुस्तकाचं पुण्यात प्रकाशन झालं.

सध्या जरी खासगी अभिसरणासाठी ह्या पुस्तकाची विक्री होत असली तरी लवकरच मोठ्या प्रमाणात ह्याचा प्रचार व प्रसार व्हावा ह्याकरता तद एकम प्रकाशकांच्या शोधात आहे.

लुडबुड...

मनात इच्छा आली कि तिच्याशी मी नाही लढणार
त्याचा काहीच उपयोग नाही कारण
माझ्यामधल्या कशाशीही मी लढले तर मी स्वतःशीच झुंज दिल्यासारखी होईल
माझ व्यक्तिमत्व ह्याने दुभंगू शकेल
समाजानी फार लहानपणापासून आपल्यावर दुभंगण्याचे संस्कार केले
सगळ्याशी युद्ध करायला शिकवल
हे वाईट आहे…हे करू नकोस…
लोक काय म्हणतील असा वागू नकोस…
परिणाम काय होतील… विचार कर…
इच्छेशी लढा न देता बराच काही घडू शकत…
मला प्रेम ह्या भावनेशीच मैत्री करायची आहे
कारण त्याचा फक्त असण दिसण बोलणं ह्यापलीकडे माझ त्याच्यावरच प्रेम शाश्वत आहे
तो भेटला तर उत्तम नाही भेटला तरी उत्तम
बोलला तर छान अबोल राहिला तरी छान
त्याने जवळ नाही घेतलं तर ठीक
पण जर त्याने मला खरच जर जवळ केलं तर साक्षात्काराच्या मार्गी एक पाउल पुढे टाकीन मी…
आणि तो हि…
परिपूर्ण प्रीती करण्याने मानसिक पोषण होत असतं
फार रुक्ष वाटल वाक्य तरीही त्यात तथ्य आहे
effortless love कारण खरच श्वास घेण्याइतक सहज नि सोप्प होऊन बसतं प्रेम करण
आणि तितकच नैसर्गिकहि
प्रेमात खोलवर गेल्यावर आणखीन आणखीन वाटा सापडतात
स्वतः भोवती AURA असावा तसा प्रेम करणारा माणूस दिसतो
स्वच्छ निर्मळ तेजस्वी
प्रेमाची विभागणी नात्यांमध्ये करण्याची गफलत समाजाने केली
मुलांवर वेगळ्या प्रकारच प्रेम आई वडीलांवर वेगळ्या प्रकारच
नवऱ्याबायकोत एका प्रकारच मैत्रीत एका प्रकारच
गुरुशिष्य प्रेम अजून वेगळ तर भाऊ बहिण आणखीनच वेगळ
देश प्रेम स्वप्रेम पशुप्रेम कुटुंबप्रेम
काय गरज आहे ह्या विभागणीची?
physiology - शरीर - संप्रेरक, रसायनं , शारीर प्रतिसाद ह्यातून उद्भवणार (sex )
psychology - मन - कलाकारांना भावणार भावनिक पातळीवर संवेदना जाणवणार (emotions )
being - आत्मा - चिरंतन निरपेक्ष अद्वैत प्रेम (spiritual union)
ह्या तीनही स्तरावर प्रेम असूच शकत
everything else is far below LOVE
प्रेम हीच प्रार्थना होऊन जाते…
प्रेम फक्त स्वप्न कविता ह्यापुरत मर्यादित न ठेवता सत्यात उतरवता आल तर निरामय आनंद अनुभूती मिळेल
it is never too late to experience LOVE all over again
खूप काही लिहावास वाटतंय पण विचार आणि लिखाण ह्याच्या वेगात फार अंतर आहे
माझी माझ्या प्रेमावरची श्रद्धा निस्सीम आहे
ह्या पृथ्वीवर नाही तरीही पलीकडच्या जगात कधी न कधीतरी ते मला सापडेल
कारण मी मला आणि माझ प्रेम हे वेगळ करूच शकत नाही
तो एक पूर्ण अनंत अनादी ध्वनी आहे
मी प्रेम केलं करणार करत राहणार

प्रेम---> मोक्ष

नदी वाहते आहे - तिला ढकलण्याची गरज नाही. ती  स्वत: हून वाहते आहे. आपण फक्त काठावर उभे राहून तिचा प्रवाह पाहू शकतो. आपल्यात पुरेस धाडस असेल तर फार फारतर आपण तिच्यात उडी मारून तिच्यासोबत वाहू शकतो. तिच्याशी लढण्यात, युद्ध करण्यात काहीच अर्थ नाही. ती आपल्याला स्वतः बरोबर नेउन समुद्रा  पर्यंत पोहोचवू  शकते…  नाहीतर तिच्या विरुद्ध पोह्ल्यास आपल काही खरा नसतं. तिच्या जलाशयावर तरंगणे ह्याशिवाय आयुष्यात तथ्य नाही आणि समर्पणातून अनंतात विलीन होण्याची कला ह्याच कृत्यातून सिद्ध होते ह्याशिवाय दुसर सत्य नाही… ह्यात सागर हा हि खरा नदी हि सुद्धा खरी… राहून राहून आपापल काय ते पारखून घ्यावं…

Face off

Contemporary way of living has made us think that all that we do or rather appear to be doing is for good of us society at large and our near n dear ones i.e. friends family and acquaintances... is it so? or is it our mask? to camouflage our insecurities? where there is mind over matter and heart over mind... in reality do we ever care or bother to speak out. it was just recently that I have begun to shed inhibition one at a time and also some conditioning. getting out of the cocoon of comfort and social makeup is difficult. But i don't want to wake up one day and realise that its already half past my life and i still haven't said a thing of what i need to say. i m going to speak my mind from now on and speak from heart. such things seldom hurt people. But diplomacy is banned for good and so is hypocrisy. if u ask me something i will speak in black and white. no shady business here. lets c how this works... if i m able to handle the clarity, also wud help me find people whom i would really like to be with... Need to unlearn goodness for good is not always true...

OPEN UP...

   

                                                                                                                                                             

शाश्वत  सत्य??? 

चूक केली कि दंड स्वरूपी कर आकारला जातो

आणि उत्तम काम केल कि कर स्वरूपी दंड … 

मोहाला आवर घालण्यात घालवलेल आयुष्य निष्फळ असाव…. 

गोंधळ  उडाला कि मी पटकन पुढच पाउल टाकते

अस मी फार टेचात म्हणायचे पूर्वी 

कालाचक्रामध्ये बरोबर किवा चूक काहीही नसत …

असते ती फक्त हालचाल… 

हानी काहीतरी करून होते …. 

काहीही न बोलून सुद्धा होते

मला तू आवडतोस 

हे म्हणायला इतके दिवस का लावतेय मी? 

जनाची भीती, मनाची कि तुझी?

खर म्हणजे EGO आड येत असेल का माझा?

कि मैत्री घालवून बसेन ही भीती?

कि त्या पेक्षा मीच का पुढाकार घ्यावा हा अहंकार?

निरपेक्ष प्रेम तू हि समजतोस आणि मी हि 

तरीही धीर न व्हावा? 

Heartbreak चा डर ह्या वयात नसतोच मुळी 

तुझ दुसऱ्या कुणावर निस्सीम प्रेम आहे 

हे हि मी स्वीकारल

तू तिसऱ्याच कुणाशीतरी लग्न करायला निघालायस 

हे हि मी मान्य केल

आपल लग्न ह्या जन्मात तरी शक्य नाही 

हि गोष्ट मनाला पटली आहे 

तुझ्यातल्या समंजसपणाची जाणीवही आहे 

तरीही तुला न सांगण्याचा अट्टाहास… 

का? 

R.I.P.

पुरिया धनश्री ऐकल्यावर संपूर्ण भरलेल वाटतं तसा मारवा ऐकवलास तू आज आधा अधुरा मधेच सोडून दिल्या सारखा बेवारस पोरका… जा तू तुझ्या वाटेने मी कोण सांगणार… थांबवू तर शकलेच नाही पण निदान निरोप तरी घ्यायचास . श्या ,साली किस्मतच निकम्मी तुझी त्याला कोण काय करणार . तिथे ऐश कर बाबा… अप्सरानबरोबर Flirt कर. गंधर्वांना पकाऊ jokes सांग . किन्नरींना भसाड्या आवाजातली तुझी गाणी ऐकव.
आणि हो चित्रगुप्ताला अवांतर वाचनावर गुगली प्रश्न टाकून भाम्भावून सोड. तिथे बरेच मुंबईकर असतील cricket वेडे त्यांच्याशी तंगडतोड match खेळ.  नसतील तिथे पण तरी फुकटात मिळतंय तर तपासून घेणारे खूप भेटतील पुणेकर .

  मग तिथल्या तिथे cyber cafe शोध आणि FB वर येऊन chat तरी कर Dr. please please तुझ फस्सकन हसणं आणि मोठ्ठा आवाज ऐकायचं . तो ऐकव नि मग जा  परत. मी नाही थांबवणार तुला . तुझी विशीतली सुंदर बायको नाही तान्ही लेक रीतन्या नाही आई बाबा नाहीत मित्र परिवार नाही कुणीही नाही . फक्त एकदा ये न. bye तरी म्हणू दे रे … जा कट्टी पण घेऊ शकत नाही आता तुझ्याशी . नकचढ्या येऊ वर तेव्हा नक्की जाब विचारू .
तुझेच
कीर्तीमय काही … 

Algorithm of a Monday morning

Planned week start is what makes the Control Freak in me Hap hap happy....
Specially when it is a day of many firsts...
First day of kids school post festive break
First day of domestic help absentism
First day of diet reboot after a planned Sunday hog...
First day of an anticipatory woohoo with hubby timing the bio clock safety 
wink wink
First day of feel good after a weekend hustle putting together a creative project for a friend...
And yes...First dawn after saying an ASSERTIVE NO... to someone I wish really dear for...
Off for finding out miracles in the mundane...
Embracing fantabulousness
Ciao...

Lessons...

Another eventful day in the diary of an urban mum... brand new set of weights was introduced to me by my dear fitness trainer... and whoa man they are good... i mean real good!!! the workout was fantabulous... tons of adrenaline pumping. sweet sweat of muscle power? Proved yet again that a good workout session is way better than most awesome orgasm in a lifetime. did my morning routine jig... went to a place that i did not want to be, but was surprised to find time for myself. talking to oneself as in self dialogue is extremely crucial. realised many things.

Actualisation

With the onset of winter, the wind of longing go beyond tolerance levels... The storms inside blow up... cooling down the aura with anticipation.... yes HE is coming. The moment I ve been waiting for is right here...only about 3 weeks to go and He ll be right in front of my eyes... What kind of vibrations will the grand entity carry, is beyond my humane imagination... My love for him has just grown day by day into something that can only be felt by an energy presence. my soul is already at that moment when our eyes will meet. was the love of meera purer or truer than radha 's? what relationship would they share? little did i realise that coming from one source, we are just fragments of each other and loving others actuallizes self love... the energy that this kind of love generates is more than nuclear fusion or atomic fission... it is surreal... beyond understanding of our brain... what matters at the end of the day that HE is god for me... I am his, He is mine... We are ONE...

Philosophically yours...

There has been an undermining urge to express... may it be in dressing, talking or penning down. Its been hard to suppress this desire... as funny as it may seem, I am close to shutting down my stress lobes in brain just to emerge calm and untethered beneath. 

on the other side I go expo shopping like youngsters go club hopping. call it the 30s syndrome call it the unsatiating urge to feel look and be young... nothing no matter any damn thing can stop me... feeling like a two faced woman with split personality as i turn on to the very right side of Thirty... Diwali is just round the corner, so many things to be done... yet I am chilled... 

what i seem to panic about are the least imp. things.... of all minor things like smiling more in the day or making it a point to read a page before I sleep... too many things in cramped compartments of this brain... guess i need some more retail therapy... currentky the only way to nirvana... ahem.... I meant AMEN...
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story till now...

hogging syndrome

slacked activity

water retention

flesh bag

bogged self esteem 

low aspiration

lazy bum

mood fluctuations

failed attempts

harsh criticism 

secret tears

unsolicited advice

initiation

temptations

sweat

breath

hours

plans

discipline

loss

expectations

more loss

hard work

results

visible difference

success

DESIRELESS... revision of what i read...

In his recent blog, Guruji talks about being a ZDP zero desire person in order to refine the soul in its purification journey to bring about the highest level of evolution a spiritual seeker desires... every strong want we project becomes an intent and is recorded and every such recording must be enjoyed or suffered in a physical form regardless of which or howmany lifetimes we take to fulfill it... adding on to the already humongous backlog attached to our soul in our numerous previous lifetimes.... the backlog becomes huge...if we become a ZDP , our compulsion for taking a physical human life will reduce we will only do so for our spiritual growth. The advantage of not having a backlog of desire to be fulfilled means that the circumstances and opportunities for increasing negative karma are drastically reduced...Desire is at the root of all negativity and all negative attributes. So when desire becomes zero we have chopped off the very root of the tree that holds all the negative qualities. The tree can only dry up and fall. In short the whole edifice on which our anger, expectations, attachment, greed, hatred, jealousy etc was built, will come crashing down. Much like how detonators are exploded simultaneously at strategic points at the base of a building to bring the entire structure crashing down. Ending desire is a one stroke demolition of a number of negatives which are otherwise hard to remove from the subconscious of the ignorant soul. its his exact words to be desireless is a shortcut in this journey... quoting him in blogs makes me revise the lessons he has taught in order to be one step closer to the source...the final journey... 

Reverence

What introspection reveals is amazing.... realizing the importance of looking within. changes that are brought about by the divine intervention are simply beyond my imagination... i might falter if i try even remotely to sound idealistic... but the truth still remains that what is happening within me is by all means GOOD (period)... 

finding a teacher in life wasn't as important as it seems now... and now that I've found one... i am ohh so glad and so much more than that

the knowledge that everything happens for a reason and it happens because I have written it in my contract makes things so easy to look at and accept. the Villains in life suddenly start to get tolerable, rather what most we feel is utmost gratitude... each and every action of others is seen as a plot designed to happen in life.... and when there is something happening that isn't positive... you now have the power to not let it affect you.... the tools help cleanse you inside out... many a times its on an emotional level sometimes, physical... and just came to know the amount of emo-garb we put in till our age is unbelievable... 

on a personal note, it was mild fever first, painful abscess then, intense throat irritation next and finally now barfing instinct... can i be ever spotless like this... ha, probably not... probably yes... if i were ever to reach to the level of my gurus.... naush for example... just his snap radiates immense positive energy and peace..... i completely surrender to the fact that nature has given us everything in so much abundance.... the guides, souls like Naush and tanaz in this day and age.... even friends like chits and gubbi... absolutely brilliant... 

now that the exam season is almost done with.... i ll get more of solitude time. i pray for having a vacation post second week so that i could practice the spiritual tools bestowed upon me by the divinity and gurus with complete concentration... 

self healing thru tools on a daily basis is getting one step closer to the change i want to see around myself... actually its not even around me its inside... but then according to what tanaz taught, nothing is inside nothing is outside.... everything is energy, it might be you or it might be me...its not even that its just us or the universe thats us... or lets call everything and everyone god... 

Have been reading Naushir's blog and have been delighted with every other word that came from him... what a soul... his 'Putting your house in order' series of articles is outstanding example of what guidance he can provide thru any medium.... here its written... but the ppl who have commented on his blog have experienced his guidance thru meditations.... dreams... soul communication... so many ways....

I ve been sending micro blog .... my own version of updates to tanaz everyday... just to let her know my progress... rather journey and a tiny way to stay connected with her.... i know she is reading and blessing me somewhere.... 

Guides have given me some ideas about my dream project early this morning.... something which i want to talk about.... may be i lll write it on paper first. i want to show it to tanaz.... seek her guidance... and then post it here... i know i ve been getting positive signals from the universe and i feel really positive.... saying a little prayer to every soul which needs it... amen

live n love....

Gratitude...

finally... moving on does bring about changes... maybe this was the sole purpose of you being in my life... so that your outward drift would radiate energy that pushed me inward... seeking... what has been is what IS... I cant thank you enough for this contract we had on the spirit level... so that we could be in each others lives to fulfill the karmic debts... thanks for letting me know... its not about acquiring... its about.... winding up... amen.... love and light...