thawing in process......

had an amazing valentines day this year. and more of so the day post valentine was also superb.... there was more than just romance, it was care sweet smiles n all....well, slept at a pro time on sunday but woke up with a not so good head on monday... the day is chilly , i am wrapped in some1ns sweater (since mine is to fashionable to keep me warm) and yeah a stole wrapped over my head covering my ears......... Vicks vapourub all over my forehead and nose..... all husszzzzing up in the chill. windows closed tight, curtains drewn on... i am all set for a euro-mumbai winter.

its mid feb and no signs of warmth. glad that my garden is obeying the orders of nature and is in full bloom.... almost 50 jasmines per day and about 30-40 mariglods and about 10 roses every single day.... makes my day as far as colors are concerned, quiet a dash to kick off the drab of the winter blues.... may be i ll stew up a herbed conoction to cure the head and burn some eucalyptus lamps around to create a healing aroma..... so much for a chilling soul.... i need to thaw myself without feeling all puffed up in these layers of sweaters..... hunger doesnt make its presence felt since its more essential to keep the fluid intake on..... i am off for some hot mugs full of water to make me melt............ god..... praying for a quick spring!!!!

addiction....

The most recomended shows are:

1) Highway on my plate.

2) Single female traveller.

3) Confessions of a travelling bag.

4) Jon and Kate plus 8.

5) Balika Vadhu - Colors.

6) Great Hotels.

7) Filthy rich and homeless.

8) Nigella Feasts - Discovery Travel and Living.

9) What Not To Wear - Discovery Travel and Living.

10) Perfect Match - Discovery.

11) Wife Swap - Discovery.

13) Top Design - Discovery Travel and Living.

14) Samantha Brown's shows.

15) Lean is In - NDTV Goodtimes.

16) I am too sexy for my shoes - NDTV Goodtimes.

17) Amazing Vacation Homes - Discovery Travel and Living.

18) While you were out - Discovery Travel and Living.

19) The chef and his better half - NDTV Goodtimes.

20)Project Runaway

podcraze personified...

celebrities.... popularity.... fashion.... glamour.... limelight et al... well fuh-ghet that. Good news recent experimentation with two new designs on the showcase were a hit. The combo Silk pink with multicolored redtoned stripes and cotton dull flores-candy green with yellow toned mixed texture.... Crystals for an addded effect... well, ppl actually asked me to design more combos like this for them but to withdraw and retire at the top position is a must. so conquering all the temptations i denied their request.....Well that means i have to come up with a new line, new ideas and pattterns to enthrall... ppl have money to spend on good life!!! recession hasnt hit the fashion industry yet..... well, since i do redo the lines i am spared of saturation and block.... kudos to the new season.... its full of colors and textures....

i am all crazy over the new releases this year. .... my i-pod is perpetually on for almost all the time.... i am careful abt the volume though. i ve been reading a lot abt pod users and the aftereffects of loud listening. shankar mahadevan....sukhvinder singh and shreaya ghosal are my latest icons in music. bollywood rocks and so does A.R.Rahman....muaaah!

I will fight this..... I will kick some ass.... I will emerge stronger....

Yesterday was a super challenging day on the personal front. Infact more of a disillusioned sequence. The 1st half was unbelieveably good. Almost what a typical girl could ask for... Movie lunch movie chilling out in the early evening.....But as the sun retired and drew off the shore started the Dark Play of destiny. Well by this time i am a firm believer of one... I havent yet had a spiritual guru yet, but i guess i shud have one soon. With the pattern in which life is surprising me in not a great way... I dunno wthr to call them surprises or something else. At a time, I called myself a serious practitioner of THE SECRET.... i still am, but not a serious one. Its seeping out of my system in a way no one could even understand..... But i guess i shud hold on.... I shud not let go...I shud wait for a while more. Someone very close to me has told me to do so....To wait.... to bear it for some more time.

To understand that what lies ahead is beautiful and all this is gonna b stressful only for a while.... So many times i wanna scream out that i m tired and i am done.... i cant take it any more but NO....I am gonna do it yet again..... in all the quests (not fights) whtr academic spiritual or otherwise one shud achieve nothing less than WINNING. and sometimes letting others win has the real victory enclosed for us.... So wot this day aint great. So wot its a game of fate. So wot...??? Its us. I am a Human,and i understand human emotions....Its brain game aint that simple and so if its destined to trottle and tumble, it will, but it will again rise to its glory....

Telling some one not to behave in a way they are coz it hurts isnt the solution.... They are supposed to behave in that way at that time. Its written. Neither can u change it nor can I. What we can change ogether is the Time of patience.... time of faith... time of self control. Self talk listening to ones heart and questioning our minds often gives us amazing answers leading to siritual strength.... Call it temporary sinthood and sit quietly where u are..... the music of happiness wud only b heard then....

cheers to destiny,

Prajakta.

Val-en-tine...

As feb the 14th nears....i ponder upon various valentine days in my life. some predictable , others full of surprises....yet others tragic(disastorously heartbreaking) and some extremely breathtaking....hehe!!! anxiously anticipated some and consciously deterred and avoided days... this year, its different again.... not like everyyear... infact not even like any of the years gone by..... its gonna make or break a thread.... a thread held on tightly for last 4 years... i cant even expect anything good or not from it.... its a tensed trembling feeling waiting to be done off.... or a shedding coat. no one's desperate here not is one avoiding it.... its just not HAPPENING!!! the person to whom i m referring to wud know better. And i understand dat there have been more of personal of late and more on the other side of optimism....but then thats how it is!!! glad dat aaji came for a short stay over ma place and we cud spend some qual. time over the weekend... hope this bond gives her as much happiness as it ever has and will always be.... god bless!!!! its just another week away.... the DAY....

kitkat break bantn hai!!!

Ahem....with the chaotically slow pace in which life goes...undethered....unalterated but absolutely superadulterated, i am so fatigued to the hilt that i need a break at a place dat i dreamt of last night... it was a dream in purple....it was a lavender tinted picture of a palace and a beautiful long pool in the front yard...i was running towards it and absolutely thrilled to enter the other side of the world.... it seemed mystic and alluring to me....

by the time i woke up, i felt so much in need of a break. i feel like fleeing off this hotch potch and flocking on with mt thoughts to the foothills of the Sivaliks or the Sahyadris....maybe alps or the amazon forests....somewhere....anywhere but this city.....hate hate hate being here in mumbai at the moment....it seems so dull grumpy and cold here....awaiting some romantic mushy warmth in my life.... hopefully someone wud answer ma prayers now!!! hell ya... i am all game for being hooked-booked and cooked by a MAN.... ;D dats wot abu-sandy call it in their glossy 1st ladies fast track questionaire.... hehe!!!

purple passion...

There was a time when I hated the color Purple and any shades of it.... But suddenly out of the blue i ve developed a liking for it!!! its actually immerged thru its hideous dull cocoons and transformed itself into a butterfly to mesemerise me with its pretty hues.... lilac, violet, wine......u name it and i love it!!!! blame it on age or refurnished fashion sense, the fashioniestas have voted for this one as the color of the season....its cool yet warm .....philosophically mild yet peaceful and mushy........mmmmmmm i am feeling violet all over again..... soak in the lavender dreams of sensual bliss......atain NIRVANA!!!

aroma in the house...

whenever the neighbours cook greasy curries endering a curried oily aroma of garlic and onions in the air i take up my own li'll tools to clear off the pungency. i love my home to remaing crisply fragrant and fresh 24X7....well, here's what i do.... i dont light up any aroma candles or incense nor do i spray any room freshner..... i squeeze fresh lemons in a spray container and spray it on the curtains and in air like a room freshner........it actually works and the citrus fragrance clears up all ur personal blues if any.......another hint is to tell ur house help to squeeze two full lemons in the floor cleaning water instead of the usual floor cleaner..... try this for a change and ur home will smell like a million bucks!!!!!! no more neighbourhood tantrums henceforth.... lime-n-lemony treat!!!!!!!!!!!! chilling with a tall glass of lemonade in hand and another bowl of paneer tikka masala (given by my neighbour ;) hehe...)in another!!!

of late...off late...

Over the last few months life has taken a U turn and has changed the way i look at things..... its a completely new perspective. with the number of ppl i com e across on a day to day basis, i look at it in a third person form. not that i am not involved in the whole thing but its more of a neutral attitude. I ve been more tolerent, least expecting and more brooding types of late which is very unlikely me and more often i do not react to any given situation in a way i used to.... call it maturity....nay....its not.....but i think a trillion times before i utter a word. its not even a self conscious phase. its just utterly uncomfortable outside but extremely peaceful inside feeling... things are turning out to b almost better than perfect and to every given stance the I in me is melting away.... can feel it go.... its not easy to let go but then its a feeling of unbelonging to self that turns its face on to u... connecting to spirituality even thru routine mundane things seems an impossible task but mind u its a game.... it gets upto u before u cud even think that its happening... Just that the time runs so fast!!! can even sense the weeks gushing off the year and feb coming right thru 2009..........well, the sadhus in us will let us be I hope!!! amen....cheers to nonimpulsive submission of melted egos.......!!!

Nail it!!! stupid girly stuff.......completely idiotic!

I ve had a recurrent dream of having wonderful long beautiful nails, I ve been sulking since years for having short stubby and square nails which refuse to grow and bend or break if unattended..... So i decided to give it all up and ignore the fact that the nails ever existed..... and one fine day while holding himanshu's arm....he screamed.....UR NAILS!!!! they are hurting me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mind them praj.... and i looked at them and i screatched!!!!!! wow...... i had these wonderful well grown nails......wonder where they came from???? not that i got them stuck on by glue or something. (i am not much into the cheap arty types) ofcourse they werent all that shapely but then i cud ofcourse shape them!!!! wow..... i rushed to my house for quick filing and a slappping of cream and there they were in all their glory........ even i cud have them!!! hurreey!!!!!! hope this is still a reality when i type with fll speed on the laptop.... the nails stubbornely resist to cooperate.... lol....who cares...... kudos to nature and hell on anything for vanity!!!!!!! here's to everyone celebrating outer beauty!! ;D hehe!!!

Phiiiizzzzssss......

Himanshu pampered me silly by getting for me a perfume with a touch of class.... I am all for the classy versions of royalty fragrances.... I have owned the irresistable Elizabeth Arden 5th avenue gifted to me by kaustubh and have loved it ever so much for its matured notes.... but this recent pampering numbed me to the hilt.... Its called Elizabeth Taylor White Diamonds. Its been a best seller for 10 years, having won almost all the op awards in the fragrance world.... top Notes: neroli, lily and tuberose. The middle notes are: orris, narcisse and amber and the base of the fragrance is: sandalwood, patchouli and oak moss. Just what the unpredictable women would love....I wear it and it makes me feel like a royalty myself. can u imagine what a perfume can do to ur image.... yeah it can make or break it.... just enough to tickle ur senses but not overpowering ur true identity........White Diamonds is surely a WINNER!!! Thanks hims.

mushy-Mushes....

I used to detest the thought of even holding the mucky muddy not so clean looking (creatures???) ;the mushrooms in my hand for quite a few years... but recently these fungi have caught my fancy and i have been excessively experimenting with them time and again. from soups to stuffings to italian pastas and chinese stir fries....to warm salads....i put them in everything i find. its actually easy to turn this bland but potentially versatile stuff to turn into something absolutely amazing!!! i ll try on some barbeque kebabs soon....or a probable shasklik or kathi roll version of the mince.... kudos to this low cal mush..... i m off to my kitchen!!!

pizzzaaazzz and panache!!!

gulp gulp gulp gulp.....another pint full of fresh lime soda (homemade) goes into our tummies as we gorge on the etherial home made whole wheat pizza made by the highness MOI.. and how did i make it? ahhh dats a top secret....well naaahh.... right from the yeast and flour to the right mixing strategy to the rising and kneading of the dough, I started out with not much confidence in my endeavour to deliver another del-hit... but yeah with luck on moi side. the dough rose and so did the anticipation... the toppings cooperated and were just rightly cooked al-dente. the spices were subtle yet enough to cheer up the indian palette.... the microwave oven was given a toss and the humble old tava was trusted and the moment of glory arrived!!!! the cheese melted...turned golden brown.... the aroma of freshly baked crust filled up my house and tavas and tavas full of pizza were drawn from the kitchen to the living area.... mouths dripping with cheesy morsels.... hail prajakta screamed my friends.......hehe !!!!!! i am the culinary queen.......... toppings? well, baby corn, sweet corn, bell pepers, capsicum, cottage cheese (marinated) shallots, garlic , tomatoes, spring onions...cilantro, herbs....u name it and i had it all........ tobasco capsico ketchup and salsas came to rescue of those who wanted to b more experimental..... yet again the chickoo-choco delight made a grand entree as a desert and fresh plans of having another desert pizza party were made........ ofcourse with me playing the part of the chef...... fresh cream....mascarpone.....del-fruits.....pulps, jams and icecreams.......sweet berry and choco sauces and vanilla pods were grocered in and i plan yet another eatavanza even before the dishes go into the washer.... hehe!!!!!! cheers to the apettite!

zombies at the gym...

Instead of giving an intro. i am starting off with the points today...u ll know y??? grrrrr....

1. I hate grunting sounds.... A mild sound at d last few reps of a set r O.K. but for gods sake... ppl who dont give a damn abt the acoustics of the sound proff gym studio need a serious word bashing.... guys and bimbos.... dont show off... dont get all cheap with those not at all happening grunts.... they r definitely a put off.... sheeeeshhh...... grow up guys and gals...enough off eeehsss aaaaahsss uuuuuummmms.......yucks!
2. I detest the ppl who stink like pigs in gym. I might b using abrasive lingo here... But folks, dint we learn the Basic Hygiene in our comunity living class at school. If u cud afford an annual gym membership.... U CAN DEFINITELY PUT IN A FEW BUCKS for buying a good deo, a nice perfume, a decent mouthwash( a tooth paste and a tooth brush wud also suffice....brush before u hit the gym and just dont drag urself straight out of bed into the treadmill), a mouth freshner (Orbit, Happy Dent, Spearmint....etc.), an armpad (if u sweat profusely)... i bathe....brush ma teeth and use antiperspirants and deos in abundance b4 hitting the gym. i pop a mint gum and carry a body splash with me in my gym bag. i make sure my presence makes ppl around me feel better. its a definite turn on guys if someone enters like a whiff of fresh fragrant air in the gym.....crisp from bath.... sexy....
3. wear COTTON for heavens sake stay away from the LYCRA which doesnt let ur body breathe. and use a freshly washed set of towel and clothes and socks set EVERYTIME..... we dont like to punish ppl with smelly feet, do we??? we cud use a talcum powder in our shoes and a foot freshner spray for convinience. hair ties up....neatly secured in a band for everyone or keep it short. u dont wanna injure everyone around u with ur stray strands....eeks.... and yeah shampoo ur hair everytime u finish ur workout along with a nice shower.....
4. wipe off ur sweat from the equipment after use. u dont want ppl to smear in ur sweat after ur workout.... and phhhhlllllleaaassssss dont forget ur sweaty towel on the equipment everytime u fin ish a set. its not even worth touching by anyone except u.... gosh.....
5. place the weights and the dumbells neatly in their respective racks after u finish..... and for gods sake dont drop them on the ground after u finish ur set...... it might b injurious to u and others around if a weight accidently falls over them....and u dont wanna trip over the scattered weights on the floor, do u??? others arent paid to serve u by clearing the floor for their workout after u r done with urs..... wake up u mumbo jumbo....
6. hey, u can get off from the equipment if u r resting in between ur sets and let others finish theirs in the interval.... u arent a royal to have the whole equipment to ur service... get off u dumb ass and clear the place....
7. gym is not a place to Chat, Read the newspaper, Eat, Oggle or Hang around...as if u have nothing better to do in life. Get a life u looser, Get Out once u r done or u ll b asked to Leave....
8. Dress decently guys and gals even if u are in shape or not.... showing off ur package in boxers is not hot boys and so not hot is having ur bra straps peeping off ur halter or tank top while working out..... keep ur kinky nothings for other ocassions (we dread the overweight love handles and stomach tyres oozing off the low waist tracks and sleeveless gunjis)... dont dress in pyjamas either....keep them to ur bedside...
9. do not give unnecessary adive to others regarding their workout form or the equipment usage. help only if asked for... and stay away from intruding in others workout or worst pointing out their mistakes.....yet dont stay away if there is an accident.... pls help...
10. Do not hog the time on the cardio machines in busy hours, get off the machine after the allotted time...and make way for others...and get the cardio machine in the normal zero incline after u r done. clear ur bottles, towel or food wrappersw off the machine. and take care of ur mobile if u have one, the instructers are not paid to hold them for u. use the locker if necessary. dont talk on the cell phone when working out.
11. Do not slam the weights while working out. its highly irritating.
12. do not come inbetween a person and a mirror if he or she is doing a set. wait for 2 mins. its ok....
13. the gym shower isnt ur private den.....ppl dont wanmt to c u go in to ur interiors cleaning up the unobtrusive parts and combing ur hair naked in the common bath.... go home and do whatever....
14. if u have more hair on ur body then scalp, shave, wax or cover up.... we hate hairy teddies brushing against us....phew....
15. Respect ur gym instructor and dont feel intimidated if he gets bossy...bring it up to the notice at the management counter, and dont feel shy to ask for help again...if u dont get a form correctly.
16. if u find an irrate person forgoing the gym ethics, make a mental note and bring it to the notice of the manager. Dont FIGHT there....
17. Lastly after u finish..... GO HOME....

needs, wants, longings, cravings, urges.....ha! is it really so complicated???

hmmmm........most of us wud agree to ve had a longing of some kind of the other.... for a friend , a soulmate or a companion......well, i ve also had my share of needs....turning into urges.... becoming necessities...... well, good company is what I WANT!!!! i guess the picture proves it! i long for the night long chats, the crazy spontainity, the rosy romance the cosy evenings the crisp mornings...of togetherness... ahh......its a bit of nostalgia and a lot of dreams...... if i still follow the secret! i shud say rather think all of the above in present tense.... okok...... as of now, lemme put on my pink coloured glasses....and have a rose tinted view......i ll let my imagination run wild and u guys just shut up and go 2 sleep!!! muaaah......

til gul ghya goad goad bola....

its to have loads of til gul ladu's and gul pol's on makar sankranti. had a grand celebration in the class..... all of us wearing black and eating sweets made up of seasame and jaggery!!! its also a festival of flying kites. though i cannot fly one, its a pleasure to watch the sky get sprinkled with tiny bursts of colors....it was so kool!!!! (the reason behind selecting the teal and black combo 4 this blog is the same ;D) and yeah i ve rejoined ma gym as a part of the new year resolution..... FITNESS IS NOT A SHORT TERM GOAL, ITS A LIFE LONG INVESTMENT.... A WAY OF LIVING!!!

i m sorted...

with a hot cuppa chai i sit near the window of mine overlooking a garden (ignoring a small hutmen of construction workers nearby....may be its a tiny slum.....god knows when it imerged in our complex? but i quite dont like it.) i wish i d have a pic of 2 cups of hot tea instead of one, but since himanshu is away for work, i love to enjoy ,MY own company.....few hours of solitude are wonderful!!!!! well, moving on....(have v really moved on???? atleast i have)

yeah, i ve had enough of 26/11 and enough of satyam... enough of the road transport ditches and post terror stitches.... i think pessimism stinks... i no longer read news which is not good watch television shows which arent optimistic and i do not hear non happy numbers on my i-pod. i am into optimism full time.... what abt u? i am sorted.... lets have this as the new year resolution.... cheers!

Anilda...

A family seeking new admission for dance for their daughter came up to me in my class. they said she used to learn dance before from another guru but since its clashing with her class timings they'd prefer to send her to me. so i told her to present a few of her steps taught in class.

she started .....and to my surprise i had a smile on my face. coz generally i am extra critical of ppl coming with a 'change of guru' case. since they have a strong influence and foundation of steps taught by their previous guru, its hard to make them unlearn or teach something of my style. its always best to learn with a clean slate.

but something was different with this girl. she was very similar to something i had learned 20 years back..... i almost squealed with excitement. are u anilda's student? She said YES.... haha.......... i wanted 2 b in touch with my 1 st guru ever and was soooooooooooo very relieved that i had finally found him...... yeah , the girl though is my student now.

i am sure anilda will b only more than happy that his student has shifted to someone none other than whom he has taught. i m gonna meet him real soon!!!!! call it DESTINY.

Santosh...

I was at byculla for some work and as i was done with my work i walked up to thge reception area and heard a very well known voice from somewhere. i dared to ask the receptionist if it was santosh my director friend who was around and not to my surprise she said yes..... 2 mins past the conversation santosh walked in and we literally screamed with happiness. its an absolutely adorable feeling to meet someone so close to u at a time when u need someone to talk to at the just correct time.......... i was soooooooooo relieved.

we headed straight to the nearest iranian cafe which is a must for anyone from a theatre background and had an hour full of comfort blabbering with brun maska and chai......... call it bliss. i had to go 4 my classes and he to his fiancee. so we had to unwillingly part ways becoz of time constrains. we did not forget though to promise to meet up real soon, knowing very well that such promises r broken till another surprise visit..... he is a brilliant director now doing just a plain job and me an actress , now in teaching.......... yeah life is surprising, i agree!!!!!!

New diet...

Ahh, in this mosaic wave of mine, methinks its time to whipup a new diet plan fit for the rush seasons, yeah u r correct, its the fvestive season where everyone wants to hog and yet look drop dead gorgeous... so its sweets savory and lotsa indulgences, fried, stuffed , baked and greased all luring me from a distance very near from my hand and mouth......

ha call it a deviled choice, but i am adamant this time. the only indulgence i succumbed to this festive season was the 1 st day of diwali wherein i did have everything in one one piece. from chakli to karangi to laddu..... all were tempting but i had to do justice to them on the 1 st day. its a tradition..... but luckily to my rescue came in my favorite lowcal chiwda.... which i gorged on and indirectly avoided getting myself stuffed with any other culprits..... hence managed to keep myself guilt free.

then on the second day i indulged in a chocolate browny..... the dry one....... i had an option of picking up a tiramisu or a choc mousse but i opted for the least killer dessert. on the third day which was lakshmi pujan. i cudnt stop myself from having a prasad of dryfruits and batasa which is a prasadam for the goddess. dryfruits yet saved me by giving in the antioxidants and omega 3 fats and good cholesterol..... haha..... i m gettin all scientific here......

and last day i did have 3 gulab jamuns......... the last day of diwali was hell and i guess i was way ahead of my ideal cal count. i guess i must have exceeded it by atleast 14000 cals. yeah u r reading it right coz 1 gulab jamun is almost 400 cals....... oops.... so i was thru with 1200 cals.....
then i had pulav and chole and aubergines n cutneys and fried corriander dumplings...... ahh....... plus a heavy breakfast of poha and another heavy dinner of a good amount of pulav...............

my diet for diwali has gone for a toss...... and i have been successful in giving away all the sweets gift boxes that have come at my place to the domestic help..... so its like an achievement for me..... and i am yet sure dat i will not touch the chocolate boxes which have arrived.... and use them as dessert dressing for ma guests.......... i am on a complete detox plan with hot soups, cold salads, tepid water and loads of buttermilk.......... its past 2 days and i can c the difference immediately..... plus the morn jog has given it a healthy company and believe me.... my skin and thoughts..... GLOW!!!!!
Wish me luck!
muaaah!

daru...

an sms from adear friend ,"hey, wotsup? me getting drunk n chattin up with a frnd. feels sooooo good!!!" (????) Alcohol is everywhere! Our local supermarket probably has a whole aisle full of beer and wine, or maybe all of us have a liquor store a few blocks from our house. Billboards show young, good-looking people holding colorful drinks. The people who make and sell alcohol spend big money trying to convince us that it’s the center of a fun, exciting life...and millions of young people see those messages every day. Well, the truth about alcohol isn’t in those ads. The truth is much more complicated! our brain feels foggy v think and see differently v can be slow and clumsy v may react to things slower v may be unable to control our emotions.

its more about the real vulnerability that we othervise inhibit ourselves in showing to the world that comes out of us when we are drunk.....

drink to celebrate

drink to mourn

drink for success

drink for loss

drink for passing

drink for failure

drink for wedding

drink for divorce

drink if she says yes

drink if she says no

drink for a breakup

drink after a patchup

drink in joy

drink in pain

a toast for the health

a peg for sickness

a shot in the morn to kickstart the day

another one to end it

a drink in lazyness

another one for super charging

one in boredom

another one in busy schedule.

the list can go on and on and on............... but 'daru' has been irreplacable, irresistable, unbeatable amongst the greatest beverages all over the world. i share a huge opinion in this regard. i d love to share it. but with its sharing would come emotions n upheaval..... i m neutral ....not a suporter neither an opposer of alcohol. but i have my views on it..... vodka, gin , rum, whiskey, beer, wine, tequilla and all the works........ salllllam to all the liquids......

yene...

to parat ala, hya veles veglya prakare.... mitra mhanunach, pun kahisa vegla.... tyachya nastyatun asleli sthitapradnyata janavli.... ata tyachya yenyane tyachi alipta guntavnuk, maitritahi an astitvatahi. nirapeksha javabdari jar ayushyat kadhi janavali asel tar kalel mazha mhanana. mug te darrojcha karyakram aso kivva alela changla vait anubhav aso ki daruchi tallaf aso.... sarva kahi nimut, sadaiva, niyamit ni suralit.... maitritla innocence ani non-judgemental attitude kitti mahatvacha asto he anubhavlyavachun na kalnyacha samarthya ni vichar tyanech nakalat manat perla....

hi konitari durvar 'asnyachi' shidori tatkaal sampel ki purun urel hyachi parva na karnyat befikari nahi..... ek vishwas ahe. kay mahit, kahi kaik varshannantar ha duva amchya atmacharitryacha ek chan khas chapter banel. ashi apeksha nahi, hope suddha nahi..... ek sambhavana ahe. bara mi kahi uthun vishech tyachya baddal lihava asa kay special? ki te special nahi mhanun lekhi nond thevavi...? tar tasa kahich nahi. keval dakhal mhanun nahi tar manapasun vatata mhanun he lihila.....

mug bhale te tyacha daru pina asu det nahitar recently coincidently mazhi 'daru' hya vishayavarchi tham mata asu det. ha virodhabhas mahatvacha, majjecha ni khas swatahacha ahe..... he goad ahe, niragas ahe, amcha ahe ni hava havasa ahe.... he maitra ahe.... ata ha pravas nirav ni shantpane aat dhaddhadat rahil.... jivantapane.... nirantar..... anubhavanurup..... shrimatkarat. mazhyasathi....

julia...

ahh....... an interesting problem, i got a new student from ukraine to learn kathak from me..... she paid her fees, filled her form and did all d formalities.... i started by explaining the importance of nataraj in traditional classical dances in india, the role of a guru in teaching and the gratitude to b expressed to mother earth in allowing us to step on her and dance and towards seeking blessings from the audience to present our art in front of them... all of this is important 2 know as a dancer and its important to give due respect yo all of the above. now julia said she wudnt b doing the authentic namaskara as her religion doesnt allow her to bow infront if anyone. grrrrrrrr..... i dint know wot to do...... any comments???? i am left wondering..... how do i react over this?

cute entry in the class...

a small little baby..... a younger sis of a student of mine came to drop her elder sis at cklass and wudnt go back.... so i asked her mom to wait and let her b in the class......... she wasv sooooooooo very super excited in looking at all d girls dancing she started hopping and dancing in her place..... she ran thru-out the class screaming with joy. she went and hugged all my students, then she also kissed many of them..... hahaha such a cute girl..... in between she suddenly opened someones bag bought out the waterbottle and offered water to another student of mine. she had absolute innocence and no inhibitions........ i am amazed.... and my girls were more than happy to include her in their practice... she was merely 15 months old but made our evening sooooooo happppppy. i thanks u little one...... ur innocence and being happy in others happiness really inspires me.... do visit us sometime again!!!! muaaah.......

backache...

i ve got a sort of particular sharp pain in my back which only emerges out while i am sleeping. it doesnt trouble me in the day..... hope this is temporary. i m advised to start doing surya namaskaar for it.... lets c if the sedentary lifestyle breakthru can reduce the pangs....

designing...

Ahhmmm........ its time i design another set of costumes for my students appearing for dance exams.... last year it was a traditional umbrella cut full sleeved dress. this year i did not want any sort of anarkali influence. i ll puke if i see another anarkali costume.... its so over the top and over used and over exposed..... instead i designed an angarkha for them. its a kothi inspired costume with a top with cuts at the end and an overlapping chest pattern... its made in cotton silk and is extremely skin friendly and is stylised with just the right amount of bling.... never ott.... so i am happy dat ma girls r gonna look true performers... with so many colors to choose from at the market it really confused me. but then i settled for a ;pure white color. its pure chalk white with silver buttis and swaroksi worked border.... drapped with a rich brocade dupatta.... awesome!

life garden...lively n fresh aura...

this is my gardening week since its october heat and a lot many plants ve become weak and suseptible to whilting due to dryness and infestation. so i went on to check any whilting of leaves and found 4 plants dead..... they could be easily uprooted from the soil as their roots did not held on well to the mud below..... the leaves were all crumply and dry and the plant corpse lay dead in my garbage bad. i had to clear the aridity from my greens since its not good to keep dead plants in the garden. its as unhealthy as having a dead body in ur house..... so i had to dispose them off asap....

then was the turn of the infested plants..... some were attacked by ants , black red and big ones and some b y moths. others by worms and yet many more with a kind of fungus.......... they looked diseased and were a threat to their healthy neighbors who were all in green health... so i had to ruthlessly cut them off till their barks..... uproot the badly infested ones with a lot of energy since they were still alive and their roots held on to the soil..... and i had to trim off some plants infected branches , leaves or parts in order to keep healthy. even after doing it , i had to spray all the plants whether healthy or not with a special spray med prepared by me. it was distilled water infusion of pure neem, turmeric and super diluted detol with a pinch of NaCl. i cleaned their individual pots n plates and the place where they were placed.....it was so relieving to c the planting area all clean and spic....

over second thoughts i felt that philosophically speaking, wasnt this an emblem of what happens in our real life as well..... there are certain areas of our life which rot.... which trouble us..........which we no longer need or use.... it makes our life stale and rancid.... its better to cut off thoughts thoughts and memories which might b infesting our soul and attacking lour aura....Doing what we love is the most common sense way to enjoy life more, we all know that.Removing unwanted commitments and quitting things we hate, however, isn't as obvious.There are lot of things that we would rather not do that we perceive as required and unavoidable, but in reality, are optional. Just as we hold onto emotional baggage from past relationships, we also hold onto a lot of baggage from previous commitments and unwanted so-called "obligations" that are no longer relevant.

we need to make a take off list in our schedule from the things that bother us...like if we wanna quit our current job..... only if its troubling us in any which way possible. but 2 have a plan B or a replacement ready so that we rnt homeless.... after all its we who need 2 clear all the bills for a sound sleep at the end of the day!!!!

secondly in recognising its real importance or the difference its absence or ;presence would have on us..... it can only b kept if it makes sense. if it doesnt however, throw it off... but while thinking on this issue we need to always include ME part in it since we offen tend to take it in a social perspective..... do not delete MEness from it.... please.... cant we all accept the fact that we indeed do have a common sense to have the courage to trust our senses?

unnecessary justification is another reason why we misinterpret the work that makes us feel unhappy as important... The fact is, keeping all your underwear and socks color coded isn't very important.Seriously.

Do i feel alive? Our negative responses are there for a reason: to tell us something are wrong. But how often do we stifle that little voice that says "why the hell do you keep doing this?" In order to create a beautiful life, we have to be honest with ourselves. Ask yourself "is this something that I really want to do?" and actually listen to the answer. Conscience is always correct...
so hell with the extras in life...... lets b clean neat , organised and SORTED...

dad

Yest. mom told me dat dad's not well now a days..... i cudnt believe my ears, since i m of the generation of kids wherein MY DADDY STRONGEST is a concept that's been fitted deep into my system. and i suddenly realized dat yes girl, Ur dad is nearing his 60. whoaaaa....... its an official age of retirement! and u still think of him as the same old angry young man! nopes babes........ he is not same old but he is turning old...... literal sense... i was so disturbed coz i have always seen dad fit and fine and raring to go and its absolutely impossible to imagine him to b anything otherwise.....

he went to a general physician , to a specialist, to a urologist , to a pathologist to a dermatologist, to a diabetologist, to an ophthalmologist..... this cycle is on...... a man who hasn't seen any other face than a general physician has to go to so many ppl???? man;prajakta cant take this.... she has to do something..... do what? pray? ahhwww??????? am i a pray pray type of a ;person, nopes , i m not. i can help em? in what way? todays parents r more than self sufficient and stable financially and otherwise........ then what is it dat i can give mom and dad? my time, my energy, courage, positive talks..... i wish to apply the secret here. the secret of thinking good.... i wish total health and well being for my parents... i am sure they will b absolutely fine. i can spend time with them and try to maintain their smiles.... i somewhere believe in the power of prayers NOW. i will pray....

comfort food!!!!!!

what tempted me most was a longing to have sabudana khichadi after a long long time. its a comfort food. though high in cals, it just sets up ur mood right.... and especially if u ve had a tough work day, soothes u the next morn for breakfast. i can have it at any hour of the day or night. just that it needs to b made by me or my aaji. no one else can please me with this maharashtrian delight. like tea , i am extremely particular abt the no. of hours the sago is soaked and the amt of water it ios soaked in. so it has to b just correct like in a cake receipe. u cant have a hard sago chewed under ur teeth nor a gooey rubber like mass elasticating on ur pallette.....

plus it needs to b enriched with lotsa STIRFRIED POTATO CHIPS- batata kachrya , assal homemade sajuk tup, i.e. ghee and taja khavlela naral i.e. freshly ground coconut and danyacha kut which is crushed roasted groundnuts....... right amt of mirchi (chillies) , jeera, cumin and kothimbir (corriander) with salt and sugar for taste and a squeeze of fresh lime over it does wonders...... aaaaah...... muh mein paani aa gaya....... i have it with freshly set yogurt which is called aadmura dahi..... lotsof memories attached to this dish. aaji used to give sabudana khichadi once a week as a treat in my tiffin..... it was such a precious day to open the lunch box and to find sago khichadi. it was awesome!!!!!! it also increased ur so called bhav amongst my cosmo friends whos moms cudnt make it for them.... haha...... so i shared my khichadi with immense pride!!!!!!! i make it today whenever i m feeling no so good.....and voila.... my mood is........ PUUUUURFECT!

lessons i ve learnt...

1) Guys love to make the girl they are falling for happy. If he is nlot making u happy....he is not into u....

2) Never become a doormat. If he takes advantage of you, it's not worth the pain in the end.

3) If he doesn't talk to you, there's nothing wrong with you. We all have to learn how to move on, even masters in the game of love

4) Even if you two only end up being friends because it turns out not working then at least you are able to be a part of his life and can know him.

5) Learn to take a hint. If the man starts doing something different while you are talking to him, shut up. Don't try to force his attention to you.

6) Don't put him in a compromising position. Men care about how you feel, even if they are not interested in you romantically. Don't force them to answer a question if they look uncomfortable with it.

7) Be very patient. Men sometimes like more than one girl at a time. (If this is the case then he is not ready for a relationship and should therefore be put in the friend catagory. Fun to hang around with but not deserving of the cookies)

8) Be what he needs. Be sure to have that something he cannot live without, you don't have to be pretty to be precious.

9) Don't get an attitude when you see something on T.V. Infact, don't pull an attitude for any dumb reason. Men think you are immature if you have an attitude.